Regardless of magnitude, when a mother’s heart is wounded, trying to muster the words to share its harbored feelings is challenging. That sweet little unmarred face — soft and sweet, looks drastically different today than it did on Independence Day. Earlier this week, little B took a fall colliding with the the corner of a wooden column, face first. His right lateral tooth was knocked completely out with remnants of wood lodged in its place to prove it. A laceration from the bottom of his right nostril to the center of his lip also occurred. What he thought was the worst bloody nose of his life looked like my worst nightmare — choking on blood, trying to calm him, and remain calm myself despite the scene. It was a long stressful day filled with many tears, prayers (many of which were yours, thank you) and little miracles along the way. The series of events and his resiliance every step of the way, will forever be engrained. How he maintained patience even though he was confused. How he listened and followed with exactness every piece of instruction I gave him. How he trusted without question. How miraculously still he laid, paralyzed in his own courage to undergo reconstruction. How he wanted nothing more than for me to hold him and to be able to go home. That day and night and the ones since, have been uncharted emotional territory for me. Sure, I’ve had my own bumps and bruises to write home about; but seeing my innocent baby impaired, makes the ramifications entirely different. I can’t help but scroll through my camera roll and cry big crocodile tears reminiscing when he was whole and completely happy. I yearn to rewind the clock, to be in a different place at a different time as to prevent what has happened from happening. I miss his ability to toss his head back, flash that open-mouth-fully-toothed-smile that is notoriously his, and release that explosion of confetti-filled giggles that fill our ears with happiness. I want to give him the okay to chomp into a whole apple, to run without reservation, to swim, and play, and be the little boy he misses being. It’s crushing. And through it all, I can’t help but think of how much worse it could be, and is, for others. How much more agonizing the suffering is of mothers who are raising babies with terminal illness, those who yearn to hold their children that have passed, those who’s hurt is mine only multiplied beyond comprehension. This wounded hole in my heart is serving as a magnifying telescope, commiserating to undo all the unfairness for each and every one of them. And through that desire, I seek strength in prayer on my baby’s behalf as well as theirs. We’re anticipating a long road of recovery to help minimize what has taken place. But until that happy day comes, we’re taking one day at a time and trying to replace discouragement with hope, pity with empathy, and sadness with gratitude. Each day is a blessing and we’re thankful for the ones that still lie ahead. We feel sincerely loved and are incredibly thankful for the continued prayers and well wishes on B’s behalf. 
So sorry Missy! All my thoughts and prayers.
More love, light and prayers to you and your family than I have words to express… xxoo
So sorry to hear. My 11 month old fell last weekend and hit his face hard enough to lose one of his 1st teeth! (He only has 6 total…well now 5…) I feel the same way, it was traumatic, tons of blood, and I can’t help but think about the fact that his smile will be different now until he is 7 or 8. But I feel lucky it wasn’t more serious and that I have 2 healthy boys to love. Best wishes to Beckham and prayers for all of you during this tough time.
Praying for your precious lil guy & all of you! Peace, calm, full recovery & complete healing.
I’m so sorry this happened. Thanks for sharing. Sending hugs and keeping your family in my prayers! My three year old son took a tumble off our swing set last week and I still can’t shake it. We’ve all been there. Xo
My heart is broken upon hearing this news.
My daughter was bitten in the face by a dog when she was 8. Many sincere, heartfelt prayers I will be praying for your precious boy and your hearts??
Oh no! I am so sorry for what happened to your sweet little boy. It is so hard to see your kiddos hurt. I have two boys also and have had our share of ER trips. My youngest Blake, at two fell on a covered well and cut right between his eyes down to the skull…and recently over a year ago my 10 year old lost his two front permanent teeth! So I can relate to the pain and discouragement and the grieving we parents go through of what they used to look like! Yes others probably go through tougher times but what happened to your guy is still tough and hard! Our faith is what got us through and I know God wants our little guys healed! So I’ll be praying for peace for all of you, and a full recovery for Beckam!
Oh no, I’m so sorry to hear about your little boy, hope he heals quickly! When we lived in germany a few years ago my oldest was in a bike accident. I had been out of the hospital for 2 days with baby #3 and he comes in covered in blood and crying. He knocked his four front teeth loose and had to have them temporarily glued with a brace to try and get them to heal and not fall out. He could only have room temperature, soft foods for 6 weeks. His lip swelled to the end of his nose, he looked so different. I felt terrible for him! But he healed and there aren’t any scars left. I hope your son isn’t in much pain, prayers for you guys!
My third little boy was born with a cleft pallete. When we got the diagnosis the grief, fear, and remorse was paralyzing and suffocating. Our heavenly Father saw us thru it all and gave us the grace to overcome all the challenges and obstacles. We saw his little miracles along the way and his hand in our lives even more brilliantly! I know you want to run from this but embrace it and tackle it head on, sweet Missy! Give it to God and he will meet you where you are and show you himself! My heart goes out to you and I know where your at but He is infinitely more than every circumstance!
So sorry Missy!!! Thank you for sharing so that we can keep all of you in our prayers! Please keep us posted and let us know if we can do anything!!
Oh Missy, my heart hurts for you. I’m so sorry about your little man. Continuing to pray for peace for you guys. xoxo Jenny
Praying for your sweet angel ?
Prayers! Lots of prayers for your heart and that if your family. God be with you in this time more than ever. I’m so sorry to hear this. Being a mother of 4 my heart goes out to you. Keep us posted
You are in my prayers. It is devastating to watch a child suffer.
Praying for a speedy recovery! Hang in there and thanks for sharing!
You’re surrounded by mamas who understand your aching mama heart. This too shall pass and he will be giggling again soon. Praying for you.
Gracious, my heart HURTS for you. I’ve been thinking about y’all constantly. And can I just say… I am a (heart bubbling over with pride) special needs mama and on a medical chart, yes…our situation looks far “worse” but pain is pain and seeing our precious children struggle and suffer is tremendously difficult. You don’t have to feel like your pain shouldn’t be consuming because it could be worse. You are free to grieve and to process and to allow yourself tears at the loss. God’s power is made perfect in ou weakness!! Praying for the Lord to stretch his hand out over sweet Beckham to heal and repair his face in Jesus’ name. Praying he meets you in the sorrow and gives you peace and hope.
I cried thinking about what your little guy and you all must be going through. I have 2 little boys and I worry about them constantly. I’m sure he will heal and be beautiful no matter what, but I can only imagine how your heart must be hurting. Prayers being sent your way! You seem like such a good mama! I love your posts and your style! You are such an inspiration to moms everywhere. Xo
I’m so sorry to hear, Missy! Thinking of you guys and little Beckham and praying things heal well and quickly.
I’m always so impressed with how healthfully you handle life with honesty and compassion for others even in your time of hurt. You are an inspiration. And little Beckham will always be beautiful no matter how he heals because you have always modelled true beauty is in your heart and your actions and not in just your looks. I’ve always admired this about you and your family. He is a brave little boy. And you are an amazing brave mommy. My thoughts are with you as your heal the hurt inside and out. Xx
Hi friend. I have been thinking of you guys a lot tonight and wanted to check in again but didn’t want to keep bugging you…that was a really beautifully written post. And yes, it could be worse, it could be much worse, but it’s ok to be sad about what your sweet boy went through….is still going through. You are such a incredible mama though and I am sure if anyone can make the most out of this situation, to find the beauty in it, it’s you. hope we can see you guys next week ❤️
Oh no so sorry to hear that!! We just went through this last week and it was so scary. My son fell at the park and hit his face on a step. I thought it would just be a bump but when I picked him up his face was covered in blood. He got a laceration along his eyebrow and needed 20-30 stitches. It was so upsetting, I know just how you feel.
Prayers to your little boy!!! He’ll be better in no time!
I’m so sorry, Missy. My mama heart can completely relate to this and the pain you’re experiencing looking back on pictures before the incident.
My fourth child was in a biking accident when he was three (a little over two years ago). He knocked out both front teeth (from the roots)… and had the worst swollen face, with scrapes and bruises. The blood was ridiculous. ? I was worried about head trauma (although thankfully he had his helmet on). He ended up having to ride in an ambulance by himself because I had my other three kids with me. As luck would have it, my fireman husband was at work hours away. It left me with such mama guilt and sadness for quite a while — but he recovered well. He’s adorable with his toothless grin, but I definitely miss his old smile, too!
Sending up prayers for you, and your beautiful family. You have such a brave little guy. Your love for your family shines through! xoxo
Thank you for being willing to share such raw, tender, sincere mom feelings. Sending hugs across the miles to each of you, and continued prayers for your inner strength and for Beckham’s slow, steady healing.
I’m sorry y’all went through this. Thank you for acknowledging those who have children going through far worse, terminal illness, cancer battle, the list goes on. For our family, cancer struck out 6 year old daughter. We battled through, especially her, but the wounds are deep.
Oh, I know just how you are feeling. When our oldest was 2, we were told that he had a brain tumor. Initially, we were told that it was most likely malignant and that he had probably been born with it. Praise God, when they did surgery they found that it was just a large abscess! He still has a long scar up the back of his head, but he will be 13 next week! That scar that I see daily is such a great reminder of God’s mercies and grace for our family… I am always reminded that things could have turned out much differently for us. Praying for healing for your sweet little guy… It is so hard to see our little ones hurt, no matter how old they are!