There’s some major churning going on in my heart right now.
A few days ago Lil’ Mister and I made the long flight across the country to visit family. In just a few short days, I’ll be flying solo (literally). Bubs is staying behind with the g-rents. Without me. Without everything he’s been used to for the last 16 months. My heart is racing with anxiety just thinking about the goodbye.
Sure, he’s going to be in the very best hands possible… The same hands that raised me. But still. It’s the thought of us being seperated when we’ve never been apart, that whigs me out. Case and point? We don’t even go out on a date until after he’s in bed fast asleep.
While we’re away, what if he says words for the first time that I’ve never heard? What if he thinks I’m never coming back? And worst case… what if he forgets about me entirely?!
All of this tastes pretty bitter.
However there’s some sweet in there too. The time has finally come… the suitcases are packed, Husby & I are boarding a ship, and setting sail to the Mediterranean! It’s been a long time coming and there’s much we’re celebrating! It’ll be wonderful to have time to devote entirely to Loverbuns (the forecast calls for falling in love all over again). I’m also looking forward to breathing in new culture, tasting new flavors, shopping knicknacks in markets, and of course documenting every second of it through photos!
Operation Seperation (from Baby) Anxiety happens Tuesday. Send good thoughts and/or prayers our way, will ya?
Happy Weekend, Friendlies!
Psst!!! On a side note, the second picture? Yeah. I almost died. (the things I risk for your entertainment, folks. I kinda love you all like that). The ledge was like 5 inches wide…
- Credits
- Shoes – F21
- Jeans – AF
- Ikat Top – F21
- Henley Hoodie – American Eagles
- Jean Jacket – Juicy Couture
- Bracelets – F21
- Ring – BP Nordstrom
- Necklace – Hand Picked
- Photography – c/o Brandy Cardarelli Photography
Aww, goodness! You poor dear. 🙁 Sending good thoughts on the double! It really is such a bittersweet feeling leaving behind the kiddos for such getaways, but absolutely *essential*, imo. The Mr. and I went to London when my lil’ man was 18 months, and the goodbye was torturous, but once we arrived abroad, it was heaven! Reconnecting with each other was the best thing we could have done to help us become even better parents. My mama always told me that the best gift you can give your children is a happy marriage. Kudos to you for doing just that! 🙂 Bon Voyage and can’t wait to see your lovely pics from your trip.
-Love and sparkles 🙂
Wise counsel, friend. A happy couple creates a happy family! xo
wow very nice post .. i like the shirt and girly hair style …
Thank you! Kinda different and crazy but definitely fun!
Sounds like a dream. Can’t wait to go to the Mediterranean. I know what you mean about leaving the kiddo. Victor and I’s first trip away we ended up coming home a day early because we missed the babe so much! 🙂 At least you know he’s in the very capable hands of the grandparents!
Good to hear all these feelings are totally normal and I’m not some looney tune… Ha! I’ll be thinking of you in the sistine chapel.
Awww…. I hope you have fantabulous time on your trip! Little man may have a little trouble at first, but after a bit, he’ll be right as rain! If my niece and nephew are any indication, when it comes to the spoiling they get from the grandparents, he’ll have a great time. And he could never forget you… you’re his whole life right now 🙂
Hugs! And have a great time!
I just hope he doesn’t think I’ve left him for good… The reunion will be one full of smiles, I’m sure! xo
Hey Girlie!
Well, from one Mom to another…let me just tell you again that “to have a child means to forever have your heart walk about outside your body”. My son Kris is 24 1/2, and I still make him check in daily even if just by txt! I still cry like a baby when he achieves major accomplishments, or when he hugs me and tells me how much he loves me. Don’t even get me started on Little Miss T! 11 years old, just started middle school, and I have to put on the brave “I know you can do this face”, all the while choking back tears that fell all over the place yesterday when she was at school. It never goes away that heart tug….but I don’t think its supposed to…I just keep reminding myself, that I have done the right thing, laid the best groundwork for them, gave them roots that run deep, and a set of the most beautiful wings blessed by their Guardian Angels….You and Ry are going to have an amazing time, and dont worry, your Little Man will NOT forget Mommy & Daddy!!!!!!! *muah*
That quote you gave me is one that has really stuck with me. It’s so true! Thank you for your words, cindy!
I just left Sailor for the first time for a week when we went to New York. I was worried also had mixed emotions! It was hard at first, but then it got really awesome and I had the time of my life!!! Of course I was calling a few times a day. You will have fun! By the last day of your trip you will be so excited to see little Bubbs!!!! Have tons of fun!!!
Awesome to hear a good time can be had! Calling our cell phone provider to see how much international coverage would be for 2 weeks… Wish us luck!
So hard to leave kids. It took me three days to relax when I left my kids and went to Hawaii. Such a weird feeling!!! I just tried to enjoy it as much as possible bc I knew it was not going to happen again for awhile:)
Good advice. I know he’ll be just fine. It’s me! Ha! He’s having a blast already. I just need to keep telling myself to enjoy every minute! Love u, Em! xo
I am so jealous! What I would give for a vacation right now! You guys seem like you really deserve it!
You’re so sweet! Nervous and excited!
you will do great!! I have 3 boys under the 3 yrs and when we leave for a night we use our I-phones/I-pads and do face time. It helps a lot to see their sweet little faces!!
I’m trying to decide if we are going to do FaceTime or not… Idk if I’ll be able to hold it together if I see hi
. Thx for the advice, friend.
You did NOT JUST CRIMP YOUR HAIR! SO CUTE! Love it all 🙂
My exact response after the hour or so it took… I did not just do this! Haha!
I don’t have children, so I don’t know exactly how you feel but I have a puppy thats so dear to my heart and I’ve been away from him for about 2.5 weeks now. Even harder he just had surgery so my heart is breaking being away from him. Can’t wait to see him. On a better note, You guys have SO much fun!
Natalie
Fur babies are like children. My heart misses my little LuLu. Hope you’re happily reunited with your pup!
awww this was a sweet post. I love moms who are so sensitive about leaving their kids. I think that is such a great and unique trait that some moms have! I’ve seen the opposite where they can’t WAIT to leave, and they try to get away from their kids on a daily basis. How sad 🙁 I understand the need to get away for a while and have some “me” time, but even after going to the gym for an hour, I can’t wait to see my little sophie.
I am excited for you guys that you get to have a trip together! it’s something I really want to do with my husband before life gets too crazy.
Can’t wait to see pictures! AND your pictues totally remind me of my junior year in high school… the krimper is BACK!! 🙂
I left today and my heart is in shambles! Seriously broken. I think I need some gelato or vecician gondola ride to cheer me up! Thank you so much for your comment… I really feel lifted up, britt! xo
Done it a few times – and boy is it hard EVERY TIME! But it’s worth it just to walk in the door and see their big smiles and bright eyes welcoming you home!
Something I’m already looking fwd to and we haven’t even begun the vacation! Thank you for your words. It’s always encouraging to hear from a Mama who’s done it before!
Oh my goodness, you are going to have so much fun! It will be hard to leave your little guy, but think of how excited you’ll be to see him when you get back! A week will go by so fast and in no time you’ll be holding Bubs in your arms again. 🙂
We’ve never left him… Only a handful of times for a date. And now we go ALL IN with a 14 day international trip? I’m crazy! Ha! Really looking forward to the reunion. Thx, friend.